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NEW BEGINNINGS

2010-01-10T16:49:00.004+08:00

www.thebostonteaparty.tumblr.com

B got me to look at tumblr. It looks a heck nicer then blogger. I'm sorry blogger :(

Anyways, I'm moving and you all should check out what tumble has to offer. If you shift over, let me know if you buy the whole idea of tumblr as well!

:)

Never knew I needed

2010-01-04T20:00:00.002+08:00

The first day back to work after a long break is always the hardest. I'm glad to be back to being able to see my crazy mates in camp. Glad to know we're all still there for each other. Its gonna be another long 10 months for me before I finish serving the nation. I pray that this time, I'd be good and I'd finish the fight.

I realize a lot of stuff over this holidays. Things that I should have done a long time ago, things about myself. Things about others. Its really interesting.

I was having JackFruit after dinner and it made me remember two things from Cambodia. Firstly, having JackFruit by the beach in the late afternoon. Awesome. Second, having the JackFruit sticky rice at Goducate. Cambodia, I miss :(

Back to the daily accounts!

(22th December 2009 - Tuesday) We set out in the morning for Pronob. It was a relatively short journey with little hick-ups. Some of the kids from Baklang came with us as well. We reached Goducate and we did registration and we unloaded into the guestrooms and the dorms. Lunch was at Goducate and we headed over to the beach in Sihanoukville. The boys bus got stopped along the way cause of something which I thing would be better not to mention and after sometime and a fine, we were back on our journey to the beach. Great time there with a mini balut compertition and then a super long wait for dinner.

(23th-25th December 2009 - Wednesday-Friday) Camp started in the morning and for the next few days, we had messages, free time to play with the kids, planting corn project, basketball building projects, and shrub chopping projects. What a blast I had. Being able to relax yet have fun and work was simply awesome. Camp ended off with camp fires and food!

(26th-28th December 2009 - Saturday-Monday) With the ending of camp, you could feel the sadness overcoming each and everyone. I dare say it was like tearing someone's heart in two. Ok, make that three. The first tear, for the kids in Baklang. Through little and broken english, speaking in hand actions, smiles, laughs, we got to know our new found brothers and sisters. It was time however, to say our goodbyes. I miss Dy and Kay. After some other stuff and lunch, it was our turn to say goodbye to the Goducate kids.

Those in my team, Esther, Elijah, Rebecca, Jacob, Chloe, and Samuael. I miss them all. They are so dear to me. Before I left, I said that I'm gonna be back. To make sure I do, I do plan to go back at the end of the year. I know there are others who want to as well. We should work together to get ourselves back to Goducate! So many people teared and cried. And it the second tear for us.

We drove over to Phenom Phen and stayed the night at the Bible Collage there.

The next night was basicially spent at the Killing Fields, S-21, and shopping.

We flew back on Monday. Well, yes, as you can see. I got very lazy to do rather detailed post. As for pictures. I think everyone would have seen everything I already put up.

That sums up Cambodia. I love the place. I love the kids at Goducate. But now, I've to concentrate of getting through this year and finding a way back to Goducate at the end. Well, and I needa focus on other stuff as well. As B's MSN pm reads, "Stay focus on things that matter". I pray I pull through this year.

Bring on 2010 (ok. A bit late. Its already what? Four days in! Haha)

<3

This Is Cambodia Baby

2010-01-02T09:18:00.002+08:00

(21th December 2009 - Monday) The nights stay was really good. Waking up to cocks crowing and a cold breeze was simply fantastic. I guess to be refreshed sometimes is in the simplicity of life.

We packed our stuff and headed out towards Baklangs small port. Walking through the village, past the market, and the shops. Stopped by a roadside stall for beef noodles!

Made the short boat ride to Bakachang for day two of the free clinic. I ended up exploring the island and then playing with the kids. We spent the whole day playing and ended with lunch on the island. It comprised of grilled baby octopus, prawns, fish soup, chili, and rice! Seafood there is like an everyday food since the people there live off the sea. We had so much to eat and it was crazy!

We left back to Koh Kong to wash up before going to visit the HIV Hospital. Personally, I knew that in poorer countries, the rates and welfare of HIV patients will rise. It did not hit me till we reached the first ward. The ward which young babies and children where infected. Did they do anything wrong in life? No. Many have not reached the age of understanding yet they are infected with one of the most scary deseases. My heart was pulled and I could not bear to move on. At the ladies ward, some of the girls started singing in what terrible Khmer they knew. It moved me and I'm sure it brough a joy to the paitents there as well. Little did I know that some of the girls even shared the gospel to one of them. Its simply amazing to see His work.

After the Hospital visit, we walked around Koh Kong before dinner simply soaking in the sights and sounds.

First big jump of the trip came when from slums and a Hospital, we went to a Casino for dinner. We were greated to an amazing view of sunset once again and everyone was going crazy taking pictures. Dinner was good and stuff happened. I'm glad that Kiddo is fine. She sure gave many a shock. My table was going crazy wiht jokes. The younger guys sure know all kinda of funny stuff. Wenny and D however, were in a very different position. A silly dare had turned into an Epic on. Wenny drinks a bowl chili padi with no water after till we get back to the motel and he gets to flush D's head down the toilet.

AWESOME.

Wenny wins and creates a huge hoohar at the motel later on. Just about everyone was in our room.

That sums up just about the whole of Day 3.

Click here for Day 3 pictures.

The new year. 2010.

2010-01-01T01:44:00.000+08:00

Looking back at the year past, I can only thank God for all he's done for me.

For various times like through a breakup, through rough relationships with friends, learning about myself and others, saving me in the accident, the Cambodia trip and many more.

I guess I'm not really good at blogging about the past year. I just know I've made so many mistakes. I'm glad He's willing to forgive me and I can move on.

In the year ahead, I want to be a better person. Live for him and not for myself.

A short post for now cause I'm using my iPhone!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

This Is Cambodia Baby

2009-12-30T15:51:00.002+08:00

(20th December 2009 - Sunday) The nights rest on beds was nice with Wenny and I being bed-buddies. Sunday mornings for me usually means waking up early to have breakfast with my parents then sending them to church and coming home till second service.

This time however, I woke slightly later. Oh Chang's nose was bleeding and he claims its cause I left the fan on speed 3 and the air-con at 18 degrees. To what extent is my fault, we'd never know. Breakfast was Cambodia's epic Beef Noodle Soup (much like the Vietnam's Poh). Ian picked out the few who would be staying at Baklang for the night. (I'd try to remember who) There was: Chang, Wenny, Dickson, Josh, Hock Cai, Aika, Xiu, Mei Shan, Ruby, Eleanor, Mimi, Nini, Samantha, Henrietta, Cassandra, and myself. So these few packed for the night and the next day and we all set of for Sunday Service, Baklang style!

We arrived to a simple childrens service where Luzern shared and we played some games. What followed was the Adult worship as well as special presentations by the local church and by our team. Lunch was next and everyone helped out to serve the food. The whole atmosphere was great and everyone just had a good time. Most people ended up playing and talking with the children there.

After lunch, Kong's free clinic started and those who were going to take care of the children brought them all to the seaside next to the Crab Shack. Well, ok, its more like they brought us there. Initially, Beverly and Yu Fei had planed for games. The local kids however, had different ideas altogether. Upon reaching the beach, they started to just swam us one by one and throw/push us into the sea. A whole load of tumbing and stumbling later, we were just having a great time playing by the sea.

Let me just pause here for a moment to say that one thing I loved and was looking forward to Cambodia, was the change of pace in lifestyle. 2009 has been a whole rush with different things jumping up into my face. Its really awesome to be able to take a step back at the end of the year to relax and have fun.

So going back to day 2, the locals were kind enough to let us use their bikes and a few of us (I shall refrain from mentioning names to protect the identity of those which cannot be named) went crazy zipping back and forth through the dusty pot-holed road. The whole day was pure fun and once again it ended with a nice of crab, prawn, and fish soup! Cambodian food is really awesome and I'm not kidding. Their chili, is so good, you can just have it with rice!

The few of us staying at Baklang for the night had to leave back first to the church and we played with the kids who were still awake. We even had our very own Scissors, Paper, Stone, 'SEA' games. Participating countrys comprice of Singapore, Cambodia, Indonesian, and Austraila. Taiwan and New Zealand withdrew cause they were too tired.

Click here for my Day 2.1 pictures.
Click here for my Day 2.2 pictures.

This Is Cambodia Baby

2009-12-29T14:07:00.002+08:00

(19th December 2009 - Saturday) Waking up to an early morning knowing your leaving the country in a few hours is one of the strangest feelings for me. There is always that mix of feelings that flood over me. There I was, rummaging through all I packed making sure I had everything.

Met up with the rest of the First group at the airport and checked in knowing that from then on, every move we made was a step closer to the trip to the land of Cambodia. Its nice traveling with family and I thank God that the whole group was like a family.

Day 1 was gonna be mostly traveling and little did we know, we were going to do just that for the rest of the day.

Its about 1h30mins of air time to Phnom Phen. And close to 5 or 6 odd hours to Koh Kong.

We stopped for lunch at this shack close to the river. First Cambodian meal which I'm pretty sure warmed the hearts of many of us. We knew we were gonna be able to live in Cambodia for the next 10 days since food there was not good, but great!

Along the way however, one of the vans burned out. The engine fan stopped and the van started to over heat. While everyone one else waited, Chang helped to rig up some ropes from one of the vans to another. We packed everyone back in and off we were again with the third van on tow by the second van. Moving at only 30km/h. It seemed like we'd have taken forever to reach Koh Kong.

We stopped by a small village to get some assistance and a truck came. I dont have pictures of the massively piled pick up's to show you but it came and the locals rigged up another towing system together with a pole, 2 nails, and ropes. It was all really interesting. Chang, Josh, Mukky, and myself had the privilage to sit on top of the truck for rest of the journey to Koh Kong. Apart from having to making two other stops becuase the towing system failed, the rest of the journey to Koh Kong was smooth.

Having the natural cool air in your face is one of the most wonderful experiences. Looking up at stars and singing with my brothers was a good pick up dispite having a terribly long trip through the day.

The total journey, which seemed like an eternety, eventually lasted for close to 10 hours. Being able to get off the vehicle, walk around, and to check-in to a motel for the night was great. We all looked forward to a shower and bed. Only this was, it was not the end of the night! We still needed Dinner!

We were driven over to Baklang Island on a beatened dusty road to a little place called the Crab Shack. What awaited us was Crab and Prawns! With an amazing dinner, and clear skys to look at a whole host of stars, I was satisfied. It was amazing to just lie down on the dirt, look up, and all you saw were constalations and all.

One word, AMAZING.

We ended the night with a debrief and headed back to the motel. Shortly after, the second group arrived over at the motel. With warm welcomes and everyone being glad to be together, we settled in for the night.

Click here for my Day 1 pictures.

Teaser

2009-12-28T16:35:00.002+08:00

So here's just a short one.

We're all back alive from Cambodia. Yes, like the tee shirt says, 'I survived Cambodia'. Honestly, it was not as bad as I thought it was gonna be. I kinda miss that place. I kinda already miss sleeping with family, waking up to a day in which rushing is a chore and lepaking is the bomb. Laughing and joking with one another, being close to the people that matter.

Cambodia has opened my eyes to much. Lessons learned, both seen, heard, and observed.

Dear God,
Thank you for bringing us to Cambodia, and for bringing us back. Thank you for lessons, thank you for protection, thank you for sweet spirit, thank you for peace, thank you for love.

P.S.

Photos and day to day accounts will come later. Maybe much later :)

Leaving this town

2009-12-19T01:04:00.002+08:00

The last time I remember going overseas on a trip was the family heading over to China.

Later today, I'd be in Cambodia with family as well. I different family though. One where I have a whole host of brothers and sisters :)

Back on the 28th so till then!

Happy Christmas everyone! :)

The Pad

2009-12-17T15:08:00.002+08:00

Finally, I have internet! A phone line! And much much more to be thankful for! The past few days without connection has been pretty weird! My laptop is just as laggy and irritating but that'd just have to do for now.

All this in time for Cambodia. I'm pretty excited about the whole thing. I cannot wait! Getting ready together with everyone has been a blast as well. The two car wash days, helping out with the flea market, and just general prep for the trip.

I've have had a bit on my mind and maybe still a bit more. A new place probably is just the thing I need right now and that I am thankful for.

I've not been blogging for ages it actually feels weird!

Btw, for those who do read my blog, I dont think I'm gonna be having some kinda house warming like I was so excited about. Reason being, things have happened and there are a few changes around here. My bro's staying in my room and will be till May. As most of you know, my perternal grandma has been living with us for a while now (thats the same). We do have an addition though! Yes, no prizes for guessing! my merternal grandma is living with us too. With that, you can imigine the amount of stress and madness my mum has been going through with that added on to getting the new pad in order.

Because of the current situation, I've decided to not make my mum's life anymore difficult. She does not know this though. So after Cambodia, I might just have something small. Maybe I wont even have anything at all! I'd just have to see when I get back. I'm guessing you'd all understand.

As with that, I'm back to playing games in the comfort of my bedroom :)

Bliss

2009-11-30T01:16:00.001+08:00

I got my iphone today!
We're officially moving into the new place on the 3rd!

Life is good :)

L4D2

2009-11-28T02:28:00.002+08:00

Its really fun and majorly addictive! I cannot stand it. I've just played through like 4 or 5 stages but I'm still wanting more!

Gee is way too addictive as well. And its not just cause of pretty Koreans dancing around. The song is really catchy! :O

Cleaning up the new place today was really tiring. It was good though. Got to spend time with my family. I really cannot wait to move it :) I want to add this display cabinet out so I can display my cameras! And speaking of cameras, I want to get another BBF cause its just way too awesome. I want to get a Golden Half (tree) addition as well. Maybe even the Diana F+. I was out with Chang and Amanda recently and we got her instant film to work! I want I want! :(

Suddenly I See

2009-11-26T00:45:00.003+08:00

Bringing Muffin out tomorrow to see the world after a long time! I miss my BlackBirdFly.

mi - mi - mi - mi - mind!

2009-11-24T20:05:00.003+08:00

Car washing was nothing but fun :)

Oh yes! Cambodia, here we come!

OHHH! The Killers are coming to Singapore! 24th Jan! I wanna go! But its so ex! Gonna find some way I hope! D! Do you still wanna go? Haha!

I'm watching Twilight. Its a rather funny interesting show.. I kinda like it!

Tsunami

2009-11-22T07:31:00.003+08:00

The cell comprises of mainly the Sec 3's to Sec 5's of the church and they had their first ever Prom. I guess to me it was strange. It was something new that hadn't been done before.

Marcus approached me to do a performance last Wednesday. A quick 4 days before the event itself. The first word was to do a solo act. Then B came into the picture, Josh, CW, CharmN, and then Lynn. Nothing was confirmed and no practice was done till Saturday itself. In the end, Josh was my wing man and CharmN and Lynn joined in the fun.

Honestly. I've known Josh for about 9 odd years. He's one of the best bros you can have even though not all the time you see if face cause he's off somewhere doing something else. That dont matter. I've got a friend in you, boy! Haha. And you know you can lean on me! HAHAHA!

Yes, we sang You've Got A Friend in Me, Lean on me, then Josh and CharmN did Everlasting, CharmN and Lynn did You Raise Me Up, and finally, Josh and I ended with Friends are Friends Forever.

A short set with a lot of laughter. Thanks for winging it and stick it through with me bro. And to B, I hope your throat is better! To CharmN and Lynn, thanks for the beautiful female voice touch to the set!

I really cannot wait till I get my MacBookPro now! :D

Plus, we're moving into our new house soon! Woohooo!

Magic Pocket

2009-11-20T12:34:00.002+08:00

Interesting! Gonna try it out once I get my Mac :)

Mew

2009-11-19T13:13:00.003+08:00

The video's a Medley of 2 songs done by Mew. I started listening to Mew a few years ago. I cannot remember how I stumbled upon them. I used to be obsessed with a song called Comforting Sounds by them. I would play it on my guitar all day long and my Dad would ask me why I kept playing the same thing.

Was on my way home yesternight when out of the 4937 or so shuffled songs, this played.

Yes, as the song goes,
It'll be fine. Intertwined.

Tik Tok

2009-11-17T21:16:00.008+08:00

It was really nice to be able to have a little chat with B after such a long time.

This picture is for TeresaQ cause she was desperately trying to take a picture of it. Decided to upload it here.

And here's a lil peek into my new house!

On a side note, it started to rain cats and dogs today when I was on my way back. Saw this just after I got home and had my shower. Its pretty neat! Rain in the setting sun.

Ok! I know its a rather distorted post. I'm sorry.

Slow dancing

2009-11-15T21:45:00.002+08:00

I just realize I find the title really interesting!

APEC has been a whole load of drama, laughter, stress, frustration, tiredness, and fun. I'm glad its nearly over :)

40th Season Baby!

2009-11-11T20:09:00.004+08:00

I love Sesame Street since I was a kid :D

Bouncy nice! Ahhhhh!

To A Special Someone,

2009-11-08T09:05:00.003+08:00

just know that I'm here for you even though we're not as close as we used to be.

Norman and Debbie's wedding was one of the most fun weddings I've been too. And yes, that does include dinner. From touching speeches, to Island Creamery ice cream, to good food, better music, instant photos, a silly performance by Norman and his best man, to non-cliche crazy videography skills, spontaneous photos, good company, and the couple's photoshopped better half.

Somehow, great weddings make you have more faith and hope in love.
just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

Lets Pretend

2009-10-30T01:25:00.002+08:00

The song makes me happy. I listen and I'm serious, I smile!
I woke up being cynical. Now I just feel happy.

Weird!

Remember this?
"What do you call a purple Vespa? Gay-Pa"
=p

Relativity

2009-10-27T23:36:00.001+08:00

Random fact about Matt, he really is kinda on the timid side.

=p

Took off today! Got my Levi's watch strap fixed, bought a book, read a lil, met up with Den and Josh for a sneaky lunch while watching Blue Mansion (a really nice show btw! Go watch it! Support local talent! Ok, I think most of you would find it draggy). Went to Ion to roam around, went to Miumiu to see the pretty shoes cause I said they have nice shoes. Josh and I were trying to figure out prices. Steep! Thats all I can say. Went to Burburry so Josh could see Emma Watson plastered all over the walls, went to a bookstore, met up with Chang. checked out my Nooka watch over at TANGS. Woah its steep too! I still really like it. They range from 250 - 450. I am going to need a lot of money if I wanna get a Nooka :(

Went to Arts House to have dinner and to watch 53a! I think that was the highlight for us. We wrote in dedications and took a picture with the band! Briefly spoke to them as well. Someone's Sara's begg begg stalker fan aye! Haha. Just hoping the pictures will turn out cause we used fishiepoo to take the shot.

I have, at long last, finished my roll. Its been so long I cannot remember what the first 12 pictures where. Hahaha!

Its late and I'm being really random. Please forgive this terrible, terrible post!

Project X

2009-10-26T22:37:00.002+08:00

Its showing tonight and tomorrow night. Or rather, it showed tonight. If you wanna watch it you've got get tickets online. They've got student and NSF prices which is pretty neat.

Problems, its a last minute advertisement sent to my gmail and I doubt I'm gonna get anyone whos gonna wanna watch a dance show with me.

Shucks. I miss my nehneh friend whos into arts as well :(

Walking

2009-10-25T18:41:00.004+08:00

Beach baptism today. Was nice. Simple, meaningful. Just like how all the baptisms are! :) Pictures will soon be up on FB. Part 1 and Part 2. So take a look if you'd like. There were a number of Uth that got baptized today.

Went for lunch with Den, Trev, Darren, and Giolo. Trev dropped me somewhere near Victoria Street. I walked over to my bus stop and while doing so, I realize I enjoy the mid afternoon sun. Well, it could have been cause it was slightly cloudy. Either way, I found it therapeutic just strolling among shop houses. Which reminds me. I miss walking through Hajj Lane.

I wish I had more money for a Nooka!

DROOLZZZZ!!! (YES! THE 2nd WATCH IS A SBSP 10th ANNIVERSARY NOOKA DESIGN!)

Sun sets, and your head,
Rest upon my shoulder...

Stand By Me!

2009-10-24T23:50:00.003+08:00

Today marks my 1 year of service to the country. Just another year to go. Come on Matt!

Stand by me, nobody knows the way it's gonna be.
Stand by me, nobody knows,
Yeah, God only knows the way it's gonna be.

2009-10-23T15:53:00.003+08:00

"Sometimes you have to give up the things that you love. One day you guys are gonna grow up and understand that."

A quote that came from the first episode. Really is too true.

Waking up on a lazy Friday when your off with absolutely nothing to do, was really something I was dreading. I was hoping that I could look forward to something. Well, when life gives you lemons, you make lemonade - or so they say. You really could find a bottle of chilled vodka, get a fresh watermelon, mix them 3 things up and make an awesome drink. I dont know about you, but I would so do the latter.

Was watching TV last night and I really wanna see whales and penguins in their natural habitat before I die! I also wanna be able to cook spontaneously with random foods I can find.

mmhmm...

Automatic

2009-10-22T23:13:00.004+08:00

Out of all the things I miss, one of the tops has got to be: singing to you and messing up without you minding.

:)

They have deleted embeddings of the originals so look it up if you want. This cover aint that bad.

Side note, has anyone figured out why Tokio Hotel's lead looks like a girl, dresses like a girl, but is a dude? He's heck weird gay..

And

2009-10-21T22:39:00.004+08:00

A whole host of songs flood my mind.

This one in particular: John Legend - Ordinary People.

I feel like singing it out loud at the top of my lungs.

Take a look this this short cause its really way too awesome - CLICK HERE!

Maybe I just miss you too much...

001 - Bottled Lamp

2009-10-17T00:52:00.004+08:00

So there I was, sitting in a half full office with a fridge full of syrup bottles. Kelvin and I where thinking of disposing them but I came up with a better idea. Well, we eventually tossed out like 2 bottles I think. 2 remained in the fridge with plain water (I have a feeling no one is gonna drink it). I remember leaving 3 empty bottles in case we needed to clean the drains. You could cut the bottles and use them as scoops so you can scoop the oily ice cream looking shizz in the drain. I swiped the last 2 bottles home...

Had the idea for a really really long time. Sadly, other people have had the same idea. I never got down to thinking how I was gonna fit the lamp (light bulb) in. I did however see the idea carried out in a shop along Hagi (sp?) Lane. If someone could do it, I'm pretty sure I could figure it out too. Sadly, its been ages since then and I got the chance to try it out today.

Did some simple sketches on how I was to fix it up and wrote out a shopping list. That's the final product up top. I'm sure there are many ways to improve it. But for now. This is, Project 001 - Bottled Lamp. I would love to try it on other types of bottles and get better fixtures and all. The one's I have inside are really cheap and dont seem that sturdy. But it still gets the job done for now! I also need to find an alternative for the base. I'm using my brother left over Balsa wood. If you dont know what that is, its basically really soft wood. Good for making models cause its easy to cut.

I would probably be doing a project the lights in my new room cause the stuff I wanna fix up, cant be bought (or at least I doubt so). Look out for that! :)

Comfort food and music

2009-10-16T00:33:00.001+08:00

Good times, good times.

:)

WAY COOL!

2009-10-13T19:14:00.002+08:00

This is just too neat :)

Lyrics in English!

Your heart that gently reflects in the puddle
is your tone, as you pass through the maze of everyday

Footsteps of spring
the city starts adding color
The melody flowsLE LU LA LI
Through the colored lenses

ReggaeDubHiphopTechnoLatin
Between the waves of all the different values
JazzRockPops Category no more
Whats the most important thing?

Spinning and turning on the overpass
as we overtake that season
this and that, which color is your melody?
Sometimes you could get confused

ReggaeDubHiphopTechnoLatin
Between the waves of all different values
JazzRockPops Category no more
What are you thinking of now?

If we can embrace all the differences
It will shine the sky in rainbow colors
Your heart that gently reflects in the puddle
is your tone, as you pass through the maze of everyday

You can see it in any color, because of your clear feeling
Dont worry about it, lets just go as we are.
If we can embrace all the differences
The rain will stop, and the sky will shines in rainbow colors

Your heart that gently reflects in the puddle
is your tone, as you pass through the maze of everyday
You can see it in any color, because of your clear feeling
Let your tone shine like the rainbow

Pass through the maze of everyday
And start playing your tone

<3

We are so much more.

2009-10-10T14:43:00.006+08:00

I dont want to be in this scene where you seem so distant and so unreachable. On the inside, I want to be near you and I think you feel the same or maybe, its just my wishful thinking. I detest how on the outside, we've to pretend to not know each other. Why run away from something which, in my opinion, would be worth to fix?

I know I've made my mistakes. Why cant we just move the obstacle away together? Do we really need to split our paths and move in two different directions? Am I the only one who's willing to fight for this? Do we have to suffer and end up way off worse then when we left off? And here I thought we've already been through worse.

People say the first thing on their mind but suddenly change, only to annunciating a safer option, making themselves believe its safer or better then the first. But really? Who's to say which is better. The first, spontanious thought, may have giving birth to something so beautiful where the safer option for the moment, would bring about death in the years to come. Its time to set yourself free from the norm. We were never norn in the beginning anyway. Let go of yourself, free fall into the unknown. If there ever is an end, I promise I'd be there to catch you.

Follow your heart and not your head for a bit. Be still, listen, its beating and its pumping. Hear its rhythms - Laba dap, laba dap. Its beats to a song, or if you would, a dance. Slower when its sad, but quickens when there's burning passion or desire. Let us move to this beat as one and not two. Pulling away from eachother only to draw back with a greater intensity then before.

Do you honestly believe this is for the better and will do us only good and not harm? If so, why do I not share the same views as you? Why would you say that its not meant to be if you've not even tried it? Would you let mistakes take a grip of you and not let them go? Would you always let the past haunt you?

I feel you, in dreams. So intense I dread waking up because I know its just a figment of my sorry imagination. One in which we will never be able to taste because of the scene that we have put ourselves into. I now, can only hope and pray for the best. Waiting, wanting, and longing, to hear your voice and to just be your friend after what will seem like an enternity.

Asher Book - Try

2009-10-10T10:55:00.003+08:00

If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come
If i say you're the one would you believe me
If i ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
While your running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But i'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If i sing you a song would you sing along
Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If i give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful
Am i catching up to you
While your running away, to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But i'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

John Legend - Ordinary People

2009-10-10T10:29:00.001+08:00

Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
'cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
'cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
Maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight,
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
We never know baby youuuu and I

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go(hey)
'cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Heyyy)
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
'cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow
Take it sloww
Take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
Take

Mmhmm

2009-10-06T19:08:00.003+08:00

I have been getting very vivid dreams the past few days.

Woahhh

I need comfort food.

Ramennnnn

Seconds in a day

2009-10-04T18:42:00.003+08:00

I've been watching Shorts on Youtube. Found some really interesting stuff. Look up "Fifty People, One Question".

Got me thinking a little.

One of the questions asked, "What's one thing that you wish for?"

I asked myself that question. I've got a ton of answers but the first thing that came to my mind, was that my brother would stop being sick. He's running a really high fever now and I pray he'd get well. So yes, the one thing that would really make me happy now, would be that my brother will be well.

Now as yourself that question (this really does go out to everyone who reads my post). What's one thing that you wish for. It can be anything under the sun or moon. Or anything that is presently non-existent. It would be really great if you'd drop a tag with your answers. Or maybe even just mail them to me? Just for the fun of it! Then again, I'm posting this up on FB.

:)

Hot Hot Head - Pickin' it up

2009-10-04T17:00:00.001+08:00

Everybody is waiting for everybody to get out
I'll join 'em talking 'bout the people everybody talk about
And all the pretty people party while the petty people pout

Pickin' it up but then I put it back down
Pickin' it up but then I put it back down
Pickin' it up but then I put it back down

We could have given up early when it was dark still, not light
Now it's the 48th hour of a two-day night
And all the pretty people party while the petty people fight

Pickin' it up but then I put it back down
Pickin' it up but then I put it back down
Pickin' it up but then I put it back down

A jack-of-all-trades and a master of none
Why do I have to be bored with being foolish and young?
The show isn't over, but I'm long since gone
I feel like I let them down when I don't wanna trade my sunshine for a cloudy night

But everybody's pretending the sun won't ever come out
I'll join 'em talking 'bout whatever everybody talks about
And all the pretty people party while the petty people shout

Pickin' it up but then I put it back down
Pickin' it up but then I put it back down
Pickin' it up but then I put it back down

I'm good, Your better, We're doing just fine.

Your Bitter Goodbyes...

2009-10-03T23:01:00.002+08:00

Matthew,

We all thought that the car wreck was the worst of all.
But no...
You've successfully made a bigger wreck when no one thought it was possible. You truly messed up this time.

Way to go? I dont think so...

Out

2009-10-02T23:34:00.004+08:00

The new car's gonna be collected tomorrow. I'm happy about that.

A lil bummed with the present circumstances.

Going "Eh eh eh eh eh eh!"

2009-10-01T23:47:00.001+08:00

Falling falling falllliinnnngggg! :)

Block 28A #40-11

2009-09-30T17:04:00.004+08:00

We got the keys to our new place this morning. Marked out the place and preped for the contractors. Everything looks really good :)

The view is just pure wicked! Well, till the haze sets in. You can see just about everything from Jurong island, West Coast, the Sea, West Coast Harbour, peek at Sentosa's peak, Keppel Harbour, and you can even take a peek at the Flyer! :D

Well, all on a clear day that is. Its just really awesome to be up there.

I got bored and since we had chalk, I ended up drawing on the wall of my room. I seem to constantly love doing that. Its like this huge canvas! :D

Pichars and such!

Lucky

2009-09-29T00:25:00.002+08:00

I was listening to Ying Chng & Sara Wee's cover of Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat. This line, this line:

I'm lucky to be coming home again.

I used to attribute it to coming home from P.Tekong (yes, you all know it is a dreaded place).

I now realize, thanks to the accident, I am very very lucky to be coming home, yes, again.

<3

Wow

2009-09-28T21:40:00.001+08:00

Some weird Japanese tune. Its rather gay but it kinda makes me feel happy. Like when it was the old days with really bad graphic cards :)

About Time

2009-09-27T22:51:00.001+08:00

To make changes. Big changes.

Come on Matt.
You can stick with this..

The Crash

2009-09-25T23:54:00.002+08:00

So alright, I guess I'm ready to say this now online here on the blog.

I crashed the car on Monday. Thank God I'm alive.

Not a pretty sight at all. Lessons to be learned from this. Other then that, its all good and I thank God!

Note: Bonnet is up cause we opened it.

am thankful for life

2009-09-21T23:31:00.001+08:00

I am thankful for,
Life
Family
Safety
My special someone
Friends
Time
Experiences
Airbags
Seat belts
Mobile phones
Music
Everything I have

I'd Think of You Tonight

2009-09-19T15:25:00.003+08:00

Cold nights and early mornings.

I wanna go on a trip. Some place away..

The past week was a good one. Now that the weekends are here, I'm home on a Saturday. Something which I dont normally do. All I want to do is to be in bed though. Or on a couch, under my jacket :)

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here

24 days

And this one goes out.

2009-09-09T23:31:00.002+08:00

Do You Remember

2009-09-05T14:13:00.000+08:00

Shek and Christine will be leaving tomorrow. I am gonna miss them both dearly. Its nice to see everyone all grown up and going to places and all. I still feel heck sad :(

Last night some of us had a little PJ's party for Shek. It was really fun. Twister, Pig (I was just watching in much amusement), Food and Drink (Shek, tell your mummy I liked the coconut drink!), TV, Hide and Seek, Laughing at the way Shek got caught, Silly dare's by the evil 'sisters', Balcony chats.

It was really fun and I enjoyed myself much :)

Moon watching, marshmallows, and the battery operated funnel long hairdryer!

Now I was...

2009-09-02T21:54:00.001+08:00

...sitting waiting wishing
That you believed in superstitions.

Maybe I can meet you there.

This is the correlation of salvation and love

2009-08-31T14:17:00.002+08:00

Emotive unstable you're like an unwinding cable car
Listening for voices, but it's the choices that make us who we are
Go your own way, even seasons have changed just burn those new leaves over
So self-absorbed you've seemed to ignore the prayers that have already come about

This is the correlation of salvation and love
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart
With quiet words I'll lead you in

La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la
La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la

Backing away from the problem of pain you never had a home
You've been misguided, you're hiding in shadows for so very long
Don't you believe that you've been deceived that you're no better than...
The hair in your eyes, it never disguised what you're really thinking of

This is the correlation of salvation and love
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart
With quiet words I'll lead you in

This is the correlation of salvation and love
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart
With quiet words I'll lead you in

You're so brilliant, don't soon forget
You're so brilliant, grace marked your heart
You're so brilliant, don't soon forget
You're so brilliant, grace marked your heart
You're so brilliant (This is the correlation)
Don't soon forget (Between salvation and love, don't drop your arms)
You're so brilliant (I'll guard your heart)
Grace marked your heart (With quiet words I'll lead you in and out of the dark)

La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la
(Don't drop your arms)
La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la

This is the correlation of salvation and love (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)
With quiet words I'll lead you in

This is the correlation of salvation and love (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)
(Don't drop your arms)
Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)
With quiet words I'll lead you in

Do you remember when we were just kids
And cardboard boxes took us miles from what we would miss
Schoolyard conversations taken to heart
And laughter took the place of everything we knew we were not

I wanna break every clock
The hands of time could never move again
We could stay in this moment (stay in this moment)
For the rest of our lives
Is it over now hey, hey, is it over now

I wanna be your last, first kiss
That you'll ever have
I wanna be your last, first kiss

Amazing how life turns out the way that it does
We end up hurting the worst, the only ones we really love

I wanna break every clock
The hands of time could never move again
We could stay in this moment (stay in this moment)
For the rest of our lives
Is it over now hey, hey, is it over now

I wanna be your last, first kiss
That you'll ever have
I wanna be your last, first kiss

Is it over now hey, hey, is it over now
Is it over how hey, hey, it's not over now

I wanna be your last, first kiss
That you'll ever have (that you'll ever have)
I wanna be your last, first love (that you'll ever have)
Till you're lying here beside me with arms and eyes open wide
I wanna be your last, first kiss for all time

Anberlin is just too awesome! Baybeats was really good! Sadly I was not really enjoying For This Cycle's set. Inch Chua was really good. Her albums out for free download!

Wish you were there.

Na na na na na na na na na.

2009-08-30T09:03:00.001+08:00

Theses day's have been good. I like seeing my Bro and P.Jun together. Warm fuzzy feeling. Just like when I see Mummy and Daddy. Haha!

Good time yesterday playing and talking and all. Basketball and Soccer. Was really good to see Shine after so long. Shooting Nerfs at Dennis and Josh. Playing Halo, Rockband, Wii - Tennis Bowling baseball boxing. Laksa and Fried Chicken! Then a good trip around Singapore!

"A good cure for sheep and humans; A good dose of turpentine, a good cussin', and a kick" - Wee Free Man

I LOVE INDIE BABY!

2009-08-26T19:18:00.000+08:00

BayBeats is this weekend! :D Some pretty good line-ups!

For This Cycle
Taken By Cars
Anberlin
West Grand Boulevard
The Great Spy Experiment

Cant wait cant wait! I think I'd be missing a few sets though :S Ohwells!

Never

2009-08-24T23:03:00.001+08:00

I want to fall asleep and never wake up.
Go on a holiday and never come back.

Do I enjoy what I am now? Or is it just various people making me think that I'm not enjoying it one bit.

Honestly. Is this what friends are suppose to be? I know you all mean the best. But still, aren't we all suppose to love unconditionally? We are family after all right?

< /3

A Beautiful Mess

2009-08-23T23:14:00.000+08:00

<3

Lovely song. Lovely thoughts that come to mind.

You make me wanna be a better person.

Nobody knows

2009-08-23T00:19:00.003+08:00

The past week has been really good :) I like!

I cant wait to watch Jump!

Oh

2009-08-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

just think as you may.

Yay! Christine is back for a while! Welcome back! I missed you which you were in Uganda! :) Tell me stories!

Of Montreal

2009-08-17T21:20:00.001+08:00

Let’s have bizarre celebrations
Let’s forget who forget what forget where
We’ll have bizarre celebrations
I’ll play the Satyr in Cypris you the bride being stripped bare(bare)

Let’s pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in Antarctica
Let's pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in Antarctica (ah-ah-ahh)

Let’s have bizarre celebrations
Lets forget when forget what forget how
We’ll have bizarre celebrations
We’ll play Tristan and Izolde but make sure I see white sails (sails)

Let’s pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in Antarctica
Let's pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in an Antarctica (ah-ah-ahh)

Maybe I’ll never die I’ll just keep growing younger with you
And you’ll grow younger too
Now it seems too lovely to be true
But I know the best things always do

Let’s pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in Antarctica
Let’s pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in Antarctica
Let’s pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in Antarctica
Let’s pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in Antarctica
Let’s pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in Antarctica
Let’s pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in Antarctica
Let’s pretend we don’t exist
Let’s pretend we’re in Antarctica.

Nice stuff. Soccer was really fun! My ankle aint in the best condition as yet though. But I'm sure he'd be ok soon!

You know, I'm suddenly wondering what it'd be like trippin on shrooms. Haha!

By and by

2009-08-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

I had interesting chats on Friday. Thanks for listening to me sissy. And of cause just being blunt! :) I really do miss you and we will meet up for your strudel soon yes?

Saturdays badminton plans were canceled cause we could not get the courts. Ended up having lunch, reading/studying, and people watching with Ethel before going to Science Center with 2 of her friends. Went for the Da Vinci thing. I think it was ok. Not bad. But nothing really excited me that much. I did like whatever little things we went for in the Science Center Section though. It was nice wishing I could pee backwards, seeing if the little fake tornado could swirl tissue round and round. That kinda thing. The company was good and I had a good time.

It was then off home and then to camp to get ready for AHM. I know, I did not run. But I had another job! To look after bananas and 100plus. It was kinda silly, and really hot. I wanted to just be in boxers but was not allowed too :S Drove home only run into a police road block. Nothing happened of cause! I did not drive, and I was not speeding. I'm so thankful I was not cause usually I fly for one place to another.

Watched District 9. I thought it was an average show. Points go to having drama and all that different emotions (it was not a flat show) and how it was made like a documentary.

I'm on off tomorrow and I'd be playing soccer with friends. Yes, I know, I dont know how to play soccer but, I will try!

ZOMG! BRUNO IS LIKE R21! Why! Whatever for!!

Attatchment

2009-08-13T20:23:00.000+08:00

Amazing band, Amazing music, Amazing video to go with the song.

I still wonder how they can come up with music like this. Its simply amazing.

Maybe, this is it. Simple, yet amazingly complexed.

Standing on the roof, looking out into sea

2009-08-13T00:31:00.000+08:00

Brosandi (smiling)
Hendumst í hringi (spinning in circles)
Höldumst í hendur (holding hands)
Allur heimurinn óskýr (the world is a blur)
nema þú stendur (except when you're standing)

Rennblautur (dripping wet)
Allur rennvotur (completly soaked)
Engin gúmmístígvél (no rubberboots)
Hlaupandi í okkur (running inside of us)
Vill springa út úr skel (wants to burst out of the shell)

Vindur í (wind in)
og útilykt ? af hárinu þínu (and the smell of your hair)
Ég lamdi eins fast og ég get (i hit as hard as i can)
með nefinu mínu (with my nose)
Hoppa í poll (jumping into a puddle)
Í engum stígvélum (wearing no boots)
Allur rennvotur (rennblautur) (completely soaked (dripping wet))
Í engum stígvélum (wearing no boots)

Og ég fæ blóðnasir (and i get a nosebleed)
En ég stend alltaf upp (but i'll always stand up again)

Og ég fæ blóðnasir (and i get a nosebleed)
En ég stend alltaf upp (but i'll always stand up again)

Icelandic band, Sigur Ros = FTW

I really enjoyed myself today :)
Thanks.

In my Prayers

2009-08-11T20:38:00.000+08:00

AmandaT got into an accident. I heard her kidney's are hurt and she's in a critical condition. If you know her, or dont know her, please pray with the rest of us.

Dearest friend, Jesus has you in His arms and you've nothing to worry. I am thankful that I will still be seeing you again :) You'd get better. Dont throw in the towel and walk towards to light at the end of the dark tunnel!

National Day

2009-08-11T00:14:00.002+08:00

Its late, but Happy birthday to Little Miss Cheong Bao Yue. I hope that your having a blast this 17 :)

This is as far as I will go with Patriotism. Happy Birthday Singapore. Thank you for being so damn giam with your fireworks this year. Your becoming like my M'sia friend Sporty.

HAHA!

Right. Duty was totally rubbish. I was rotting and dying. I'm just so thankful I made it through. I was tired on Sunday I think that was why I was so lethargic and all. Anyways, St John's turned out so much more awesome then expected. The walking, laughing, lying down, swinging, running, the company. I kinda enjoyed the rain in the early morning as well. I dont know. I'm weird like that I think. I like to 'rough it out' every once in the while. The sense of urgency, the one-ness when everyone if helping out the get to shelter, the awesome protection goretex provides! Hahahaha!

I love boat rides and I am hoping one day I'd be able to own one. I even have a name for it!

Random fact,
Someone silly has a small bladder!

Kukupaolas

Stay Home

2009-08-06T08:28:00.002+08:00

Right. Am sick and nothing interesting has happened.

A few weeks ago, maybe even a month ago, I was in camp listening to the radio. It was some acoustic session with local bands and all. Sara Wee from 53A was singing. I fell in love with her voice. She's seriously good.

So here's to local music/talent.

Right, back to more rest for me.

Singapore seems to have haze yet again! :S

Side note! Sara Wee reminds me of Sarah Ooi!

[Edit]

I know its long, like close to 30mins. But if you've time, Owl City for you. This is really my kinda high music. You can listen to it, go crazy, jump around, get a high, chill, or just sleep! :)

Happiness

2009-08-03T17:21:00.000+08:00

Live high, live mighty.

Eugene and Daphne are now married. The photos are all up on facebook. There was something really personal about the wedding. I think its cause Eugene and Daphne have made impact on my life since I was young. Lovely wedding, lovely couple, lovely friends who were there.

<3

I was listening to Colbie Caillat. Very awesome sounds for road trips. I got a little emo listing to her. Somehow it just makes you think. Haha!

Billy Elliot

2009-07-30T20:00:00.001+08:00

To my son Billy.

Dear Billy,
I know I must seem like a distant memory to you. Which is probably a good thing.

Well it'd been a long time, and I will have missed seeing you grow. Missed you cryin', laughin', shoutin'. And I will have missed telling you off. But please know, I was always there with you through everything, with you through everything. I always will be. And I am proud to have known you, and I am proud that you are mine. Always be yourself.

I love you forever.

Mum

<3

My favorite part from the movie.

And in all honesty. This is one of the most emotional movies I've seen. Its really super good and if you get a chance, watch the show. No regrets!

Simple As It Should be

2009-07-29T23:31:00.002+08:00

I wanna do an album of pure film pictures. I wanna ask you to be the model but I'm hesitating! Why why why?

I got this funny feeling just thinking about you. I somehow wish you did too.
Dont worry. I know you dont.

The Money Song

2009-07-29T00:55:00.003+08:00

I missed AvenueQ and I'm still upset cause I missed it. I will fly overseas to find it just to watch it! :D

I love them singing. Its so awesome! And super funny! Hoho! :D

I hope tomorrow's plan works out! (Ok, its really today's plan)

And all the things you do.

2009-07-27T23:06:00.000+08:00

Thin hair, Waterproof skirt, Small umbrella, Rain in different directions, Public Enemy, Laughs, "I'm the one your dentist warned you about", Castles, Chief, Secret writing, Water, Decoding, Recipes, Shoe chiefs, Boats, Coldplay - Yellow, Spinning, Singing, Finishing up a roll on random shots, Smiling happily all the way home.

Today was a ~~good~~ GREAT day.

:)

My First Step

2009-07-27T13:14:00.000+08:00

Love the song.

I dont have to go for the Dinner I was supposed to attend at first. I can not go for E+D's Wedding!

I think I'm gonna take a few snaps today. Today seems like its going well.
Oh say you'd do the squishy face for me!

Love

2009-07-26T22:57:00.000+08:00

I hope that I can make it for E+D's wedding. Gotta talk to S4 tomorrow about covering my butt.
Norm&Deb are getting married soon too. I really love them cause they are so cute and happy people. Also cause they are really nice to me! Hoho!

I realize your away on business. Be safe. I dont know if I'd see you at the wedding. But I hope things wont be awkward at all.

I hate camp. Well, not really. I just hate the idea of having to go every morning.

I miss Xiu and Aud much. Come back Dec! :)

I cannot wait for St John's.

2009-07-24T23:59:00.002+08:00

Awesome composition that Dennis showed to me!

The walk from HortPark to Vivo was nice. A change I would say. Kinda walked really fast through the whole thing though.

Some pictures but that will be on FB.

Josh's surprise was nice! I got my Nerf and went on the flyer. Nothing spectacular about that though! Nerf is still number 1 awesome! HAHA!

When You We Were Young

2009-07-22T00:20:00.002+08:00

I find this very appropriate since this is a very happy birthday to both Mr Joshua Chong and Ms Yu Fang.

I some how doubt that they will read this but, none the less! :)

Joshua - Your such an ass at times. I cant tell you why here. But ask me and I'd tell you why. I think you know why already though! Ha! Anyways, I love you man! Really. I've not seen you for a while and we needa spend time together. Faster ORD and your your skinny ass into Uni! You know what to do! HAHA!

YuFang - I know you can play the guitar. I know you can sing. BUT! I never never knew you could both play AND sing that super awesomely! If they dont let you be a doctor, just let me know. I'd somehow hook you up to play at gigs and acoustic sessions! Haha! I've be your manager! :D Coming to stay near me in hall means that when I'm hungry in the night I will call you ok! =p You know what? I dont have your mobile number! WOW!

Your both growing older and have in one way or another implanted a little seed in my heart. Yes, so sappy! I heart you both tremendiously!

Do always remember when you were young. I think thats important. Always remember where you started from. I think somehow one day it comes back and bites you. Wakes you up in dire situation. Its somehow pretty cool that way =p

Oh yeah, please! Both of you! If you like Nerf guns! Get one ok? I am finding people who will be crazy enough to get one with me so we can run around and play in a grass field till we get dizzy and just let the field eat us up! Hoho! :) Yes, me and my fantasies!

On a very side note, the video of the song. IT IS THE BEST VERSION I'VE HEARD! ITS ONE OF THE BEST ACOUSTIC SONGS! I LOVE LOVE "THE KILLERS"! AND THE SONG! WOW!

Yes, music lovers, agree with me.

*takes a bow*

Acoustic

2009-07-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

Fang has awesome mad skill. Talent and balls. A big R goes to you. Yes, my Respect!

All this music and live sets and all are so making me wanna play my guitar all day! I cannot wait to pull off jamming plans at the end of the year!

I have a secret fascination for colorful things. Especially if they are in bright prime colors! Also, I have a fascination for Nerf Guns. If you dont know what it is, just google it. Yes, everyone in internet land, I am a little geek! Well, I think that makes me one... Love me honeys! :D

Is that a bad thing?

*shrugs*

I still love my camera very much and I think that makes me a geek in some small way too. Especially since I adore toy cameras!

I really do end up rambling huh!

WOOOOO!

2009-07-18T00:05:00.002+08:00

Bro's engaged! Awesome news man!

I got vans!

BlackOut

2009-07-16T20:02:00.002+08:00

CLICK HERE! LIKE NOW!

Then watch whats below.

Ok, is anyone interested? :)

Kindergarten

2009-07-16T00:06:00.003+08:00

Met up with Charmaine and Audrey. Dinner at house and long drives. Awesome time just catching up, laughing, random comments.

Colbie ~~Caillat~~ Kai-Lei is really from China! Well, no, I really love her music! But that DJ. Just too funny!

If the fish swam out of the ocean
and grew legs and they started walking
and the apes climbed down from the trees
and grew tall and they started talking

and the stars fell out of the sky
and my tears rolled into the ocean
now i'm looking for a reason why
you even set my world into motion

'cause if you're not really here
then the stars don't even matter
now i'm filled to the top with fear
but it's all just a bunch of matter
'cause if you're not really here
then i don't want to be either
i wanna be next to you
black and gold
black and gold
black and gold

i looked up into the night sky
and see a thousand eyes staring back
and all around these golden beacons
i see nothing but black

Lyricsi feel a way of something beyond them
i don't see what i can feel
if vision is the only validation
then most of my life isn't real

'cause if you're not really here
then the stars don't even matter
now i'm filled to the top with fear
but it's all just a bunch of matter
'cause if you're not really here
then i don't want to be either
i wanna be next to you
black and gold
black and gold
black and gold

Next one's on Thursday 26!

Shopping

2009-07-13T21:50:00.003+08:00

Went for Dinner and Shopping with my dear Sissy since shes back from KL! :) Totally missed her so much!

We ate at Shokudo Streets of Japan! First time for us both and boy was it good! I think it was a better time catching up as well! Cause we had dinner super early, there was like no rush and not much waiting! Such a lovely time! We walked around and window shopped! There were shoes we both liked but in bad sizes :( So terrible, it like always happens to us man! I really like the Vans, Zapato Del Barco. Like after super long I've found the boat lofers I like! :D But no size. I hate hate hate it when that happens. Did you know, Vans came up with like a LE Design for the Zapato Del Barco? Its got like snake skin and its super sexy!

Speaking about sexy, I bought shades from SexyDiamond! It was funny how I ended up buying it! Eearlier in the day, I was asking Cherie she thought spraying plastic shades to the desired color would work. We agreed that it would most prolly work out. All I needed to do was to find a nice pair of simple cheap plastic shades! A few days back, or was it on Sunday, I walked passed SexyDiamond and saw that in the shop they had Wayfare inspired shades. Black rims with neon colored legs! I really wanted to get it. There used to be colored rimed Wayfare inspired shades at Fourskin but when I was there before today (which is I dont know when), they were only left with pure black ones. That was were the idea of spraying came into mind.

Anyways, we went to Fourskin but did not really look at it and walked off. We went to SexyDiamond and I tried the neon green legged ones. Loved it so much. Cherie however, (being well, Cherie), thought that I wanted to get the SexyDiamond ones to spray! She thought I was being stupid cause they cost a fair bit more then the one's at Fourskin. When we finally found out she was discouraging me for the wrong reason, she said, "then, I think you should get em if you like em!". Well, that was way enough reason for me to get my second pair of shades! Just what I wanted! Plastic so that I need not worry too much about if it drops or something. The Raybans are like Gold to me man!

HAHAHAHA!

Yes, I love Cherie cause she is Cherie :)
<3

Its good to have you back Sissy!

ZOMGWTFBBQ

2009-07-13T02:55:00.003+08:00

Wow, I just found out something so strange and weird.

I dont know if many of you know, but Shuzhen and I started knowing we liked each other because of Rachael Yamagata. It was like the perfect song playing at the perfect time. We were listening to it as I leaded over and whispered in her ear. Since then, Rachael Yamagata's "Be Be Your Love" has had a very special place in my heart. Go check out the lyrics. It still tears me up till today. Anyways, I ended up asking her to be my girlfriend on the 15th of December. We had three awesome sweet months which followed with a bitter one and we ended on the 14th of April.

Now thats the back story. I just found out that Rachael Yamagata came to Singapore to play on the 15th of April. Wow. Thats just so weird man. Maybe not to you. But its damn shit weird for me.

Maybe all we needed was just another day.

I somehow think that is the cast for many people for many other things. All we wished for/want was just another day:

Another day in Paradise
Another day in/at Camp
Another day to be a Child
Another day to spend with that Loved One
Another day to be Happy
Another day to Yourself
Another day, another day.

Its just too bad ~~most of the time~~ we never get another day. And I mean ever, like never ever.

I NEED!

2009-07-13T02:35:00.001+08:00

HOT CHOCOLATE!
AND
MACS SAUSAGE MC MUFFIN WITH EGG!

:(

DISAPPOINTED! :( I KNOW I FEEL LIKE THAT. GRRRRRRRRRR.

The List

2009-07-11T12:53:00.004+08:00

Here are the movie I really wanna watch that are out now.
Sunshine Cleaning
20th Century Boys 2
Fifty Dead Man Walking
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince
Obsessed
Duplicity
The Taking Of Pelham 123

Those that are coming soon.
GI Joe
The Hangover
Fighting
Food
Public Enemies
Year One
Up
Fame
Bruno

Shit, thats really a lot, but there's still more. And I needa find a movie buddy :(

Short

2009-07-11T02:42:00.002+08:00

In short, Night fest sucked. But company was good. Loop Of Fortune was really awesome though. Pyrotechnics totally made up for the night though!

In short, I ran, and rushed, and sped, just to catch a glimpse before Chantel left. My stupid ankle is now swollen and as loose as ever. Fudge it.

In short, I hope everyone who is feeling down, be it emotionally, or physically, get back on their feet and be happy and running around once again!

In short, Audrey and I planned a kindi outing in under 5 mins. Technically not lah since we already though about it before hand. Btw, not just one event, but two!

In short, I cannot wait for 15, 19, and another day yet to be confirmed!

In short, I wanna watch JUMP, STOMP, and go for BAYBEATS. The dates avalible are 11 - 13 Sept, 6 - 11 Oct, and 28 - 30 Aug respectivly.

In short, there are many movies I wanna watch. Harry Potter, Up, Fighting, District 9, GI JOE, 20 Centuary boys ETC.

And now,

In short, I'm very sleepy. Goodnight.

Old

2009-07-08T19:03:00.002+08:00

I feel way too old. Mannn.

One of the first few performances I watched was BreakOut. Awesome company but.. thats a different issue. There's like Own Time Own Target and like Dance thinggie that they are advertising. As well as STOMP! I really wanna go watch them.

Anyone?

Wonderwall

2009-07-08T01:11:00.003+08:00

A cover of a cover of Wonderwall by Ryan Adams. Awesome :)

Right now,

2009-07-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

I just wish someone would call me...

Best I EVER had.

2009-07-05T23:26:00.005+08:00

Dear Cupcake.

I find myself missing you after all this while even though I thought I'd have gotten over you. Its really true when they say that there are just some people you were never forget. You'd always be Cupcake to me.

I hope your doing well and I thank you for replying my text last night. You have no idea what it means to me. To know you still acknowledge me. I hope and pray that one day, you'd be able to come back, back to church, back to the family. I miss you and I know the rest do too.

I am praying for you.

Sadly, I still find myself loving you a bit too much still...

Shit I'm so messed up.

NADA SURF

2009-07-05T16:22:00.001+08:00

But Always Love
Hate will get you every time
Always Love
even when you wanna fight
Always Love
Hate will get you every time
Always love
Hate will get you

All the time I see your reflection.

2009-07-04T23:01:00.004+08:00

Cause when I'm with you,
It seems so easy.
My best days are with you,
They are so easy.

No wait, they were so easy..

I dont know what I'm doing half the time. I feel messed up at times. Floating aimlessly. I kinda think about the posting offer that I had to Taiwan. I rejected it instantly cause I did not want to be a year away from you and the family. I now look back and think. That maybe I should have taken it up. I should have flew there to explore.

I'm basically this quiet reserved kid who is stuck in situations. I really dont wanna get into trouble with the things I do. But maybe, trouble is just what I need to get into so that I can grow up, learn, and maybe even live. I dont mean that I should mess up my life on sex, drugs, booze, and rock & roll. But I should expand my horizon.

You are a go getter. Maybe I should learn that from you. Know what I want. And move to get it. I know I'm capable of things beyond me. Its really just weather I want to or not.

Crazy talk? :|

Nada Surf - Weightless

RUMBLE FIRE

2009-07-03T11:51:00.000+08:00

RUMBLE FIRE

You are generally heroic, honourable group, they tend to be dedicated to peace, and feel a need to protect other races from the Decepticons. As a result you are usually Transformers who change into non-combat oriented alternate modes such as domestic vehicles, cars, trucks, or rescue vehicles.

- Transformer Name Generator on Facebook.

Oooooo...

Love

2009-07-01T23:58:00.002+08:00

"SAM! Look at me! Listen to me. You cant leave me here like this! Come back Sam! Listen to me, I love you! I love you."

I prolly left out or added in stuff. But you get the idea.

Watched Transformers 2. I have the sudden urge to get myself a Bumble Bee toy! Haha! Megan as usual was super hot! I do wonder why Dirty says she aint. Ohwells! I loved the show no matter what everyone says!

Bought myself a YakPak so I'm a happy boy!

Dennis is off in Melb and Cherie's in KL. I'm still here though. Shit. I wanna get out :S

I need holiday!!

Such a messy anyhow post.

Gnight everyone!

She's A Star

2009-06-29T23:40:00.000+08:00

You a star, baby you a star
You a sta-ah-ah-ar, you a sta-ah-ah-ar
Cause when you shine, baby when you shi-ih-ine
When you shi-ih-ih-ine, when you shi-ih-ih-ine
You be lightin up my life (OHH!) Light up my life (OHH!)
Light up my life (OHH!) Light up my li-ih-ife
Lightin up my life (OHH!) Light up my life (OHH!)
Light up my life (OHH!) Yeah baby we'll be

:)

Two Oh!

2009-06-27T23:07:00.004+08:00

A belated msg! But none the less! Happy Birthday Mummy Teresa!

And here's band awesome! Lol!

Cough, Sore Throat, Phlege

2009-06-25T19:39:00.004+08:00

I am sick.

But not sick enough for H1N1. Can everyone who aint super paranoid please come be my friend? Sigh.

I needa find time for Transformers, haircut, replace ATM card.

I also needa find someway to get your attention. You freaking killing me mann! I shout "here here, pick me pick me!" But all I get in a gazing look by...

Daddy's Day

2009-06-21T19:09:00.002+08:00

BLUR PICTURES! MY BAD!

Cooked a meal today. Not totally what I expected. But still pretty good :)

The last time I cooked, it was for you. Now your gone. And I do miss you.

NO GOOD!

2009-06-20T11:26:00.001+08:00

Social circle is small.

So small its saddening.

WDAFREAK!

The 3 words

2009-06-17T21:27:00.002+08:00

Dan: You know, the first time I told Serena I loved her, it was terrifying. I've never felt so exposed. But the feeling that I got when she said it back to me, was probably the single greatest moment of my life.

Blair: But, you broke up!

Dan: Doesn't mean I wouldn't do it all over again

Gossip Girl - Season 2, Episode 8

I get it.

2009-06-17T18:06:00.002+08:00

I sprained my ankle on Monday night.
Saw the MO on Tuesday.
Went to A&E for MC Tuesday night cause It still hurt like mad and I was hobbling here and there through out the day.
Went back to camp cause I had duty and was not allowed to take my MC since the next day I had to do something and only I could do it.
And now I'm back at home on a Wednesday.
MC till Thursday.
Back on Friday.
MA on Friday.

I slept all afternoon and it feels really good.

I think I know whats going on..

Could this be?

2009-06-15T08:44:00.002+08:00

Out of line?

Say you're the only one breaking me down like this!
You're the only one, I would take a shot on.
Keep me hanging on, so contagiously!

Lost

2009-06-14T09:27:00.002+08:00

I lost a part of me. My mojo, is gone, if you will.

The part in which:
I've got a lot of ideas
I have staying power with the things I do
I'd be trigger happy
I'd be happy all day long for no reason at all
I'd be jumping around
I'd look forward to something

I think there's more but I'm so lazy to think about the things I've lost even.

My right contact lens wont fit properly and its pissing the shit outta me.

Its like all I wanna do these few days, is to sit some place and do nothing at all watching time pass and people walk by. Maybe I should. I'm starting to get frustrated.

Ooi said that prolly my mojo and photos would come back when I go trigger happy at the wedding this evening. Problem is that, I'm gonna use the point and shoot. Why? I dont feel like lugging my DSLR. And also, I think the point and shot would be easier to take pichars of friends and all without the help of others. Easier to view, blablabla.

I'm in Hobo...

Back!

2009-06-13T11:00:00.002+08:00

Cause someone said,
"Because awesomeness is the house! :)"

I've missed you and I'm glad your back though its for a short while! I really could not resist putting this picture up! Haha. It was also cause for some reason I could not find nice photos of you. I wonder why...

Well, welcome back Christine! :)